GOOD NEWS- This stress is killing me!

Friday morning I got a call that my MRI had 2 spots on it and we were given an appt to see a neurologist today at Barnes. So we went today and it turns out the spots are nothing, they look like migraines, which I never have, but anyway, no worries about those. Well, what about these symptoms I am having, memory loss and confusion. He talked to me for a long time about all the anxiety I feel from having cancer, worrying it's coming back, and some other stressors in my life that cause me to have a lot of anxiety. I am very prone to anxiety anyway but of course it has gotten worse this past year. It has also gotten worse as my one year anniversary approaches. He said all my symptoms are caused from high levels of anxiety and my Lexapro dose is way too small. He said anxiety actually changes the chemistry in the brain. So for us, this was the best news we could have heard b/c my concerns were legitimate but fixable. I am going back in 1 month so we can talk about whether things have improved.
I wanted to tell an Emily story real quick. Saturday I had her all by myself all day and I desperately needed a pedicure. DESPERATELY. I had a party to go to Saturday night, a real date night with Scott. I read in a parenting magazine once that in an emergency, it's ok to bribe your children with a toy. So I decided this qualified as a bona fide emergency. So I told Emily if she would go to the salon with me and be really good I would buy her a toy. I know it was a crazy idea and I refused to consider the age old question "what's the worst that could happen". So we pull in the parking lot and I say Hey do you want your toes painted? Oh, no Mommy that would tickle (she hates to have her toes painted). When we walked in and she saw all those colors, she changed her mind! She picked out a hot pink color and sat like a big girl and charmed the entire store while she got her toes done. It also helped that Animal Planet was playing on the big screen TV. And I had snacks. And a toy at Target was just waiting for a home. I offered to take her to lunch anywhere and she chose Fish Sticks at home! Wow, easy to please. So she got her toy and her fish sticks and she is so proud of her pink nails. She couldn't wait to show them to Kasey today. Oh, if you are wondering what color I chose, I picked Blood Platelet Red in hopes it would be good karma for my platelet counts that really need to go up.