Short post:
When you are a patient at Southeast Hospital, they ask you to continually rate your pain. Today I decided we will use the same system for rating my crying jags. That way, for future reference, you will know how upsetting something was to me by the rating I give. For example, tears in the eyes is a "1", a complete hysterical meltdown is a "10". Today, I opened an email from one of Scott's fishing buddies, he sent a picture/article about his wife and teenage daughter winning a fishing tournament. I immediately burst into tears that escalated to about a "6". Scott didn't understand why it upset me. Can anyone out there comprehend this? I couldn't explain it to him, which left him very puzzled.
Anyway, that's all for now.
Love,
Michele
7 comments:
Michele,
I know why it was a 6, without a doubt!! But, you hang in there, you will beat this thing, and not only will you and your teenage daughters win fishing tournaments, but you'll be attending their graduations and weddings too! Love and prayers, Robin
I'm at a 2 just reading it - without cancer. Every mother's greatest fear is leaving before her children are "finished." My only advice is to give it to God. I can't do it either, but even by giving a little, you feel a little better. Easy for me to say, yes, but it's all I got tonight.
On a happy note, it was WONDERFUL to hang out with Emily today. She is certainly a ray of sunshine!
Keep hangin' in,
Amy H
Michele,
I totally understand why it was a 6. But I'm with Robin, you are going to beat this thing.
Love and prayers,
Kim
Michele, I sooo understand. I am sure there will be many things that trigger future tears. I have had several people tell me, It is ok to cry, let it out and move on.
Heck in a couple years I might be crying at the same picture, because my only daughter may be a black lab. haha And she is fixed so there are no grandchildren. haha
It was hard going to work today as if life was the same. At least when I was in Cape, I felt like I was doing something to help.
Michele, I am so proud of you and how you are handling this. You are an inspiration to us all.
Love you, Donna
Men in general just don't understand the thoughts and fears that go through women's minds; they only see what is in front on them at that moment. Us, your women warriors, will cry with you and completely understand.
I love you,
Linda
Michele,
I completely agree with all of the previous posts. In addition to those wonderful thoughts, maybe it was also because your life has been turned upside down within the last couple of weeks. When you saw that picture it reminded you of "normal" moments that you really need right now but haven't been able to do since you first found out due to dr. appointments and surgery. All those feelings are normal so when you need to - just let it out. You are strong and you will be victorious! By the way, once you are better from surgery and are experiencing those "normal" moments they will be even more AWESOME than you could ever imagine! You will be so grateful for all of them.
I love the rating scale - helps us to understand!
P.S. I hope my e-mail on Sunday was helpful.
Shawna
Hey Michele!
You've had to deal with more in your life as a young mother than most of us will have to. You are a super Mom. After what your body has gone through, your emotions will need a release, I'm sure in the strangest places and times. If you ever need someone to use as a puching bag, may I suggest my husband? (Just kidding, honey...I'm sure he'll be reading this tomorrow)
God bless you!
Becky Wichern
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